I close my eyes at night
And watch you in my rearview mirror
Taillights washing you in scarlet
As you fade into the darkness
And I fade from the light

But I force myself to power through
Moving forward apathetically
Knowing even after this unbearable night
A new day will dawn
Without you

But a hollow aching festers in my chest
A torment growing larger as I push on
In that moment, I surrender and look back
Only to see my reflection cradling my heart
Cleaved from my breast

How did I get here?
Memories claw their way up
Faster than I can cast them out
Despair washing over me
And into the darkness I disappear

I wrestle with my consciousness
What once brought me joy
Now brings me agony
No answers, I continue plodding
Across the infinite abyss

Fighting this incessant yearning
Weathering the black hole
And enduring all that I suffer
I force myself to remember
For better or worse, the world keeps on turning

Photo by Marcel Strauß on Unsplash

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